The attempts to write eloquently with the meaning and benefit to the readers frequently head towards the writer‘s block. Though it may look nice to keep bad emotions and sad stories for oneself (not to litter the space we all share in common), but the suppressed feelings result in a double darkness. Yet the situation is not the hopeless. I will share my experience as a proof. I‘m writing in a foreign language nobody talk around and thus transform the legitimate mourning into the lovely play of words nobody follow because of ignorance of language I talk. That reminds the hiding in a safe shelter but that enables me to stand up and go on with a smile. So a toad is addressing you.
As I opened the dictionary, what am I became the obvious. I was a toad. Yes yes, as the disabled I was unemployed for life so I was eating my family toads. The truth was not the inspirational but the arguing with the dictionary would look even more silly thing. The reality looked ugly but I did not gave in despite my predicament. I did not throw away my Lithuanian-English vocabulary but opened its next page.
Creative work…that was a whole new ball game. Now the Dictionary enabled me to put a new face on my being. People know me as an artist! Have a look at Tomas Karkalas…The artworks blossom forth with a wish to thank for the beauty that surround me in disguise as the abstracts.The creativity enables me not to stumble and view the life not through the eyes but on inside.